for the past 48 hours,
i've been shuffling in and out of tan tock seng. ididnt have the mood to eat or talk to anybody.
i just wanted to be with my daddy.
when i got home, all kind of thoughts ran thru my head and i was worried sick cos he was in so much pain in the first night, he kept saying " pain" and he kept pressing on the trigger to trigger more morphine.
the doctor saw kuku and mom the next morning n he explained to us the critical signs that we tohave to look for. when kuku called to explain to me, it just addded more to the worrying and i buay tahan u know? i just wanted to be by his side asap.
dadddy i know u're in pain
daddy please be strong.
i've NEVER worried so much for him before in my life,it's always the other way, so much more compared to his stroke incident cos he could talk to me and sayang me still n i knew he was fine.
he's family.
mom n dad is the only family i have.
i really really really don't want anything to happen to my papa.
he has a stitch from across his entire torso, they've stapled it up for now and he has 2 more incisions along the thighs. he had a vascular surgery which they sewed 2 synthetic tubes to his femoral from his aorta. and now he cannot eat or drink water for the next 4-6 days becos they actually paralysed his intestines n lungs, removed his intestines, kept his lungs on some machine, and operated on him. soimagine how many layers of tissues are hurting and this is supposed to be good for him, cos his arteries to his legs have hardened up with cholestrol and calcium, he shld be able to walk normally. but the issue is when?
and i hope he doesnt face complications at all.
i cldnt bear to leave last night until he told me to go , it must be so lonely in the stupid room and i just wanted to be there. he kept holding my hand, and it felt good holding his hand.
and guess what???
this morning they called to inform he has been moved to a general ward becos someone else needed the bed.
i am a lil pissed becos i want them to monitor him as closely as they ave been n yes im relieved that he's in the gen ward. but im gonna be vigilant and make sure evrybody washes their hands with soap and alcohol before they see my papa. no visitors till i know my dad is fine.

i've been pushing the ones i love away cos i havent had the mood to talk or even sms . im sorry. be back soon when iknow he's aye okay. im sorry and my proj peeps have been damn understanding esp nadia n jia. thank u, i'll try to finish up my part as soon as i can. yoda..call u laterrrr k?? love u lots.
gonna rush to the ward now, wanna catch the surgeon during his mornin rounds.