why me?

hairdressers are my worse enemies.
today ( FIRST OF JUNE), mom decides that we can leave my dad alone and we can settle bills and errands together in the afternoon, she said her whole body was aching from the constant worrying n she only realises it when her whole body isnt as tensed. so yeah she went for a massage and a full pedi and mom ask what i wanted to do , i suggested a hair cut ,a nice fringe cos my fringe was weighing past my face anyway.
i went to ICON at isetan.
please none of u shld ever go there.
TO HELL WITH SHUNJI MATSUO.
okay??
i ask for the most senior hair stylist cos i have a phobia of hair stylists.
i honestly do. i do not trust any of them. so thinking im in some funky shunji matsuo lil outlet, i can get A FUNKY FRINGE
they dun have the "director" arnd he's at the wellington outlet i get to have a "senior" hairstylist.
i told her i want to have a fringe, and the front just a lil bit more layered n told her specificallY NO HELMET STYLE where its a bobbish and the lower part is long n layered .urgh.

she's a middle aged lady and
she started snipping frm behind.
"why are uc ttin from behind?"
" i'm cutting the dead ends"
" why are us til cutting..can u not cut so short please i still want to be able to tie up my hair"
" yes of cos u can tieup ur hair:
she attacked me fringed nshe really snipped the sides.
she left me for a table diagonaly across.
i flipped my hair from behind, and i YELPED.
it was so shoRT!!!
a lil bit past the shoulder length. &i was fuckin pissed.
i said aloud ' FUCK this is wrong"
(she cld hear me she was less than 2 m away)

i flipped my magazines as fast as i can and i had this face.
anybody who cld see and hear knew there was a mini typhoON building inside of me.
i called my mom n told her the hairstylist did a f-up piece of work on me and im not happy at all.
i was obviously not happy. when the girl stopped blowing, another hair stylist came over in the attempt to cool me down.

" i heard u're not happy with what my colleague has cut for u "
" OF COS IM UNHAPPY. I CAME here for a FRINGe n m,ore layers in fornt not a MAKE OVEr and get a new complete hairstyle, i had this hairstyle when i was 15 and 2 years ago . i hAve to take some time before i get to grow my hair to the same LENGTH I WALKED INTO THE SHOP a few minutes ago"
" ims orry maybe there is some miscommunication...:"
" IF there is.. WHY ARE U TALKIn to me, Please for gdness sake, GET HER to talk to me, and not u, u didnt cut my HAIr!"
she came over n she grabbed a picture which she showed me before myhairwash,
" i cut ur fringe the same way:
" yes i think the fringe is gREAT but mY length? i TOLD u to stop cutting any shorter, u kept cutting ...say i can tie"
" but but but..."
then the scond lady stepped in and tried to pacify me by tellin me i have more stYLE now cos my hair has more shape,
: i wld wish u had maintained the length and did the layer to the front and connected it , i WLD HAVE LOVED IT okay?"
"look i am jst UPSET becos i did not want this and i got it okay? please let me go now. i have so many more things to worry abt "

i for once DID not want to feel victimised and let the hairdresser think she did a good job. she did a SHIT ASS JOB . if only u wld have listened .
> I made sure she had no face. i gave the girl who blew myhair $10 cos i KNOW i was a bitch n it wasnt her fault to be at the receiving end but the HAIRDRESSER I CLD HAVE STABBED her with my fingers i tell u.
im ugly now. feeling lousy , ugly, tmrw i'll get my result sn i 'll feel like the dumbest ass in the world.
bye crowning glory. i miss u.
i feel like a phony having this hairstyle
like im no longer myself. damn PREPPISH.
wha lau eh. so much for tryin to attaining LINDSAY LOHAN LOCKS.
i feel like a dork. n my 21st bday is comin up. so much forhavin hair that makes me look lke im back in secondary sch,
i HATE ALLL HAIRDRESSERS.
u BRING MISERY TO THE WORLD>
my life. my drama mama life.
my days seem to be gg from bad to worse
i dread mirrors now. I HOWLED when i saw my hair cld not be tied up into a pony tail.
i have a disfigured dog 's tail on my head, not nice lil' ponymane.
ihatemyself.
bubbyee long hair.

(imagine everything shorter its barely sweepin my shoulders)



for those who have not known me , i had hair extensions at 18 years old. SIMply becos i had a bad haircut as well.
i know long hair suits me best cos i have a long history of BAD HAIrcuts, it compensates the fact that u put on a lil weight, guys tend to look more, it makes anything glamourous,makes t shirt n shorts looks nice, makes anything look more girly n feminine.
to girls, hair is EVERYTHING to us.

i've lost my hair now. i have to make sure i LOOK THINNER means i have to START WORKIN OUT. cos its so DAMN FAce framin i better work out my face. im gonna go crazy and not eat as much.
i hate the way im speaking right now.
but i am feeling like this.
im at the hospital, dad is sleeping already. nurse came in to check his temp n Blood pressure.,
the oNLy gratifying thing is he's gettin better n that's keepin me a lil sane.