it's friday the 13th, n im not smiling

hey

the past 2 days have been madi received a call from a good bank to inform me about an available internship with their IT dept and i couldnt believe my ears when i first received the news.
TRIPLE YAY and somersaults right?

so i went down to the career centre to inform them i wish to amend my internship company and they said i have to seek approval from the professor in charge.
i called him in his office, n he said i was " selfish", i was only thinking for myself and I would tarnish the reputation of the school for pulling out of the first company, he has so many students who are crawlin at his door wanting him to help in finding a company and here i am wanting to change my company...
he said i'll have to write a letter of appeal against his word and he is the sole person in charge of eee director and I also have to speak to the director of engineering attachment.

she says " even if microsoft calls you, you have to honour your word, you cant just skip another company because a better company comes along the way"

when i offered to find a replacement, she says " so you go to a better company and the student takes your scrap?"

i had moral bashing from these 2 bureaucratic analistic biatches for half an hour each and seriously all they could say to me was to write a letter of appeal which i spent so much time on, brendan even editted it for me, it was a stellar arguement but we all know it isn't how much you can write or howmuch benefits you can summarise, they've already made up their minds and they just wanted to turn me down in black and white.

"I cannot support your appeal.You have made a promise to work for the first company, and we have contacted the company and evaluated the technical programme. It does not reflect well on NTU students not to honour the promise."

i am very sad now.scooping nutella on my spoon and licking it off. comfort food.

i can't believe they wont support me in wanting the best for myself. this concerns my career. everyone knows internships can be served as stepping stones and they will add so much to your resume.everyone knows that for a fact.

i think i did enough of fighting.
no more being a trooper.
im a wounded tiger licking my wounds.
i wanna get out of school fast.
i wont forgive them for this.

i usually get what i want, and now i am forced to be the bigger person and take the smaller share of the pie.
i hate school.
no doubt icell is still a great company with a funky project, but working in the IT dept of some financial place is where i see myself next time. so yeah.
gotta kiss my opportunity good bye.for what? i dont see their point.

as if lecturers havin call girls as mistresses aren't bad enough, they want to hold me for tarnishing the sch reputation??? PUH-lease. they should be happy for me.